Annoyed...

So I'm all alone in the house. And I'm very very very annoyed by this freaking Anwar!!!! Can somebody ask him to stop messaging me? I mean, we're from different channel. I just can't change my channel - my language. How does he can expect me to sms in Malay? I'm sorry. But I'm just not having fun chatting like that. 1 more thing. Please stop miss calling me midnight? haiz... no.1 It so rude that he misscall like that. no.2 My mum's starting to suspect me of having a boyfriend since got once she answered his line. And I'll be in deep trouble. no.3 He's not the one i'm waiting for to misscall me or sms me. If "he" does do that, I won't mind letting him disturb me =D~ But anyways~ It's just a false dream~

New start perhaps? I'm fine~

Just about last week i said I would reopen the next day. But I apologize. Because of my dad. He's always at home and always check check see see to see what we're doing - -

OK, let's start. Last week, P3ar gao bai in ChYn's bday card. ShuYan saw it and gave us read. Then she loud loud said :"Eee~Jolene jealous d" I was like ** ** ******！*！！！ so ***** lo. I like him, that;s the truth. BUT! I don't feel jealous at all. At first I was kinda impressed. Because he dare to do that and let the whole class knew. Then after that, i feel sad. If say I don't feel anything, then that's lying. BUT i really don't feel jealous. Because, psycology what. I got that xin li zun bei before. And I never thought of got the chance also la. haha. To tell the truth, I now quite avoided him. Don't wanna re-like something that doesn't brings you any chance to like them right? I'm not that stupid. Anyways, I don't think much of him today compared to the last few weeks. I feel nothing compared to that day. But maybe with a slightly sad feelings during her bday. Then, I'm free =P I sat luin also have nothing to worry. Because I will be more focus on my study. I don't have to think bout stupid things during studying. Speaking bout study, It's bout time i have to study. N1gHt keep chatting with me. Haha. A quite long time ago didn't contact d good good friend. lolx

Back & On

Yupz, I'm back and I'm "on-ing" this blog back. I know, I've abandoned you all!~ NO worry NO fear~

This holiday, well it's only 2 days. But it's not quite much a holiday. Because I can't on the pc and go online anyways. That's all because of my grandfather. He had been discharged yesterday and we all went to new house and stay there, of course. Much to say. But, I don't think I'll start it today. My dad is putting much of his eyes on me and my sis. He won't let me touch the pc. He said I have to sit for my exams and games are not allowed. Hello!!?? I'm tired and stressed out. Gimme some time to be free. Pleaaassee!! I really don't have the strength to continue study!

Tomorrow, I'll be starting writing again.

Solved after soo long and i'm finally truly felt so free!

There's this problem in my heart and I finally solved it. Well, after running away from it for 4months+. I thought I can forget about it. And feel less of those anger. But when my online lou dao reminds me of it, it makes me angry and sick. This matter haven't been forgotten. I wanna say it out loud and tell everyone. At first, I quit ran most probably because of friends. 君子交绝，不出恶声。 But I just certainly can't control myself. It's like hiding in my heart all these while. But today, from today onwards, there's no such things bothering me anymore. I wanna make a clean go. And now, I can concentrate on planning my life ahead. Life is not just games. There's more to life. And I love to live in reality more than a stupid game. For the life ahead, I will cheer, I will remember the past as it thought me lessons, I will take a chance to prove to myself, that I am strong enough to face what I faced in reality. The past will never be alive again under my care. Be Strong to Face What Reality Gives! Gambate Jolene!

Holiday Movi3s

Bored to stay alone at home. Even the PC doesn't seem to be attractive anymore ever since i quit Ran. And Xdo sometimes bored me out too.

What can be done in this whole boring day?~

Movies~ Good thing there's something called TV. So pleased someone invented it. Haha. HBO and Astro channel 322 to watch some movies. I watched bout 3 movies. Which i watch first i really don't remember.

The first 1 i remember. It's "Evan Almighty". Talking bout a politician just been chosen to be a congressman. He prayed to God that he could change everyone's life. His wife, prayed for the whole family to be closer. It's a comedy. The God came true. And he asked the politician to build an ark(boat) as he predicted that a flood was about to come. However, the politician finds it hard and difficult as his wife and family slowly felt something crazy bout this guy. =D But fortunately, they came and everyone helped to build the boat and so the flood came but everyone are safe, including the animals~ Yea~ Haha. Anyways, the main reason i liked the story is because some good statements. "If you ask god to make your family closer, it gives you the opportunity to get close to each other. It won't fall from the sky just like that" and "Act of a Random Kindness from random times" Love both of those =)

Next, another comedy and a little love story. There's this girl, named Vivian, she was cheated by her Bf. Her Bf went to find other girl that was so pro in "chai mui". This makes Vivian to learn how to "chai mui" so that she can fight back with Mango (that girl who's pro in chai mui). She learned with this pub boss, which was a divorcee. So like that, they talk bout their love story and how they won Mango. Nice show. Romantic ma =D

Last show i watched today was I-don't-know-what-name. LOlz. I seriously don't know what was it's name. But it's a meaningful story. Both divorcee, with many children, fell in love together and decided to stay under the same roof. At first, all the children don't like each other and fought over matters. Sometimes, I watched this type of movies and i don't know why i cried. =.=' Not saying it's touching or sad or whatever, but I just cry!! LOlz. Stupid ya.

Tomorrow, I had to go to school. For the Biology extra classes. I am feeling so lazy right now. And I don't feel like going either. I had to take the bus again. So tiring. But what to do? I must study still...

Emotional Play Game between Frenz

That CZ finally talked to me. Not that i wanted. But, if we still can be friends, then it's OK for me too. However, the story doesn't stop there. Why? Because Sk33zer CZ is an emotional freak. Like it's her own problem but she can make it everyone's problem too. She gives out those ugly black face to people. And she only thinks about herself, not other's feelings. So the proofs are :

We don't know what bomb she ate, and she's a d@mn freaking crazy emotional freak.

1. Well, yesterday, she asked me to pass down the "return school" slip to the first row students. But some of them didn't know that we need to tear half of the paper and share. Today, she shouted my name "Jolene, 你有没有传下去第一排的？！做么酱多人没拿到？！" And I was feeling, "D***! I got passed down la! You didn't say need to tear half how do other people know?" And then I overheard that she said "看到在白板上写什么，又不问是什么纸！" Wa, so sweating! Like this type of lame excuse also can come out of her mouth. Because of this, I was in no mood during Biology period. I can't stand not telling anything about this. So, I whisper to LM and say "Stupid CZ!"
2. 4th period, It's time to go to the auditorium to watch "The Sixth Sense". CZ and mermaid said Colin was too slow and they went up first. I decided to wait for Colin. After all, it's better to sit and wait with that thing. While waiting for Colin, LM and CV(Watermelon) came up to me. LM told me that CV told him Colin also scolded CZ. Colin was angry at her cause of CZ's attitude too. That black face attitude.
3. LM just jokingly asked CZ not to be so black face. But that CZ talk also didn't talk then turned away. HAH! See how she back away when LM got CV already. (I've heard from LM that CZ liked him before also....just "heard"~ But no doubt, with this type of flower girl, it's not hard to say it's true)
   

It's not like I want to take part in this game. But I have other frens like mermaid and Colin too. CZ is not going to stand in the way either.

"Big" very Suprising bday present......-.-'

Just a day after my birthday, I got a present from the government. Come congrats me~ lol.

"Tahniah kerana kena NS."

XD! swt! Haha. Initially, I don't like NS cause of some bad reports that always revolves around NS students. Rape cases, Murder cases. And i bet the food isn't good either. Once, my online friend told me that even the NS warden is mean to chinese girl students, prejudice against chineses, making statements like "gatal", "miang" on them. When i heard about this, I felt angry and disgust against this NS. How can such a program teach their people about unity??

Then, YiMiin keep saying it's very fun and can take money too~ I think I should give it a try. But yet, it depends on luck too. If I'm lucky, I can get to go to somewhere lesser malays, like Ipoh. And i'll accept Sabah and Sarawak too. Why? Because I never been to Sabah and Sarawak before. Free plane ticket eh. lolz! Why must I depend on luck too? Well, one of my classmates said that his don't know who unluckily went to Kelantan camp, which is full of malays. He said the students over there always make fun of her. And even molested her when the electricity is cut off. =.=" So, it depends on luck. Please give me a good place please!!

I can't wait to tell my mum. I think she'll freak out anyways. haha. what to do? I can't run away from it either. By the ways, tahniah to HY, Chester, JL, edwin, YiMiin, and many others! Hope we are in the same camp. ><"

BDaY bIgDay

Yeah~ Today's my big day~ When i reached school today, everybody so pretend geh! ><" There that HY la and colin, mermaid all.. =.=' ming2 know is my bday today, all pretend don't know. Even "Happy Birthday" also don't have.. But, I sure know there's something la. the more quiet the more big surprise ma. LOlz!

4th period, Colin and Pkeng and mermaid came to my place. They gave me a present and a birthday card. Very pretty. i opened that present already. It's a snoopy dog. haha.. Then HY gave me 4 pears, and wrote 生日快乐 on it. It was very cute. Haha.. But alittle TOO obvious jor. Like Watermelon sure know who i like already. And mermaid also guessed correct too, but i haven't confess la. OMg! LOlz! But I'm happy. Thx very much o HY!~ =P I love your present until dare not eat jor. haha

Reached home and i online. This online lou dao just scared me. =.=" He suddenly biao bai to me. LOLz! But actually he joke de la. because it's my birthday. LOlz! SO damn scare me already. hahaha. ya' know la, I loyal to my pear geh~ XD!

Thx for remembering my bday. and all those present. Love you all ^^

Sick! T.T!

This has been going for bout 2 days. i can't eat i can't swallow. And it's making me going NUTS!! >"< call =".="><" I've been eating porridge yesterday and today morning and night. It felt kinda bored. But for my bday, I MUST BE PATIENCE! ><" (12 Aug) Well, not exactly i will celebrate on that day, coz my mum say it's bad luck celebrating on the ghost's month. Actually, she's just making excuses to wait for her hubby to return and celebrate with her. hahaha. on Aug15, my didi will be 1 yr old!! Congrats small brat! Happy birthday to Bryan!!! But you are so naughty... ><" why can't u just be a Baby ><"

I went to see a doctor today. He said that I have thoncer...*sore throat.. But something strange... that is I don't feel feverish.. Just pain. OuCh ><" he advised me to drink more water. Hello??! I've been drinking a cow this morning. Not to mention, visiting the toilet more than 10 times in just only the mornings. ><" Haven't count afternoon and night. haha. I drank 3cups of honey and 2 cups of water. who won't visit that toilet more often? ><"

Mature thinkings =P

I've realized that I've been quite good girl nowadays. Ever since writing this blog and exercise, I totally don't have time to play games! Such as SDOx. I didn't touch it like almost a week already. I know i have been a good girl now. XD! Plus, i can help my mum do some house chores. Normally, I lazy like pig then always give mum scold =.=" true confession time. wakaka... Don't see me as the girl next door k? You may be wrong. Haha..

1 more thing happened when i started writing this blog. Other than slightly improving my english grammar mistakes and spelling problems, I have become more aware about what's happening around me. Such as, small matter. Know why? Because I must find something to write in this blog. =P If not, I won't maintain this blog till like almost a month now. hehe. =) Writing blogs really make my life more interesting.

exams hooray~

Hooray~ my Sejarah exam got the highest~ =P paid off all my hard work~ reading in the dark before sleeping...spoiling my eyesight =.= at least, i have good results~ so is my chemistry exams~ 33 over 40. not the highest but impressive ^^

actually, hard work only cost 25% of scoring...most importantly~ concentration during class~ which has a percentage of 70%~ what bout the 5% left?? well~ L-U-C-K!~ hahaha~

Try my best in doing exams~
+u+u myself!!!!
SPM SCORE A!

stressful life - wanna go crazy!

kinda cant get over myself these days.. so much examinations... it's like i haven't got enough time to clear up all the shit! ARGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

too much exams, too much stress! any place to have a peace of my mind??!! T_T